I am struggling a
When processing a decision, there is a big part of me that still hasn't clued in to the fact that I am an adult and can make decisions on my own.
At some point in my life I 'learned' that before I choose to do anything I need to talk about it with others and receive their golden stamp of approval before proceeding.
This has caused me much confusion.
I can't say exactly when this learned behavior became part of my thinking process, but it's been there for quite some time.
As I move forward thru this magical year that is 2016, I am working at releasing ingrained thought patterns that no longer serve me. On the inside I know who I truly am and what I am capable of doing, however, I am feeling weighed down by a few key, I don't even know what to call them, other than, annoyances of the brain.
I see myself now, and I see myself where I want to be in a few years. In order to reach that goal I need to put in the time and do some inner work. Again, I am so thankful for this Mercury Retrograde. It's a chance to look back, look within, plan, and process what needs to be worked on, changed, or let go of completely.
I have a clear vision for myself and how I am to contribute to the world. The full vision is still a few years away from existence, but 2016 is my year to start gathering what I need in order to build that vision. And that includes working on myself.
Last fall I was being guided to step away from Facebook and Instagram. I like Facebook for the ease of connecting with others, and I like Instagram because I love photography. I find both platforms to be inspiring, but after time they have the ability to take away that inspiration and I find myself feeling negatively about them. Stepping away was oddly hard, and I had a few weeks of cravings, but I stayed strong and haven't been on since. To make it easier on myself I deactivated my Facebook account and removed the Instagram app from my phone and tablet. This has been very freeing for me and I want to be free of both for the rest of the year. With this extra time I have been re-reading some of my old spirituality books. The Celestine Prophecy, A New Earth, and The Alchemist have all re-ignited my passion and love of all things spiritual.
Spirituality has been a huge part of my life for the past several years. At times I have stepped away for various reasons, and each time I have gone back to it. The past year woke me up and I am now ready to accept that this is a huge part of my life's journey and purpose. No matter what people may think of this I am ready to embrace it and stand up for my beliefs and what I want out of life. At times I feel very much alone on this path, as many don't know about spirituality, but even tho I may be alone I trust that the right people will cross my path in divine timing to further my spiritual evolution.
I am greatly looking forward to each step that I take on this journey.